“f*ck my victims..!”..sez bernie madoff…

“…Madoff was accustomed to hearing other inmates call his name.

From July 14, the day he arrived, he’d been an object of fascination.

Prisoners had assiduously followed his criminal career on the prison TVs.

“Hey, Bernie,” an inmate would yell to him admiringly while he was at his job sweeping up the cafeteria, “I seen you on TV.”

In return, Madoff nodded and waved, smiling that sphinxlike half-smile.

“What did he say?” Madoff sometimes asked.

But that evening an inmate badgered Madoff about the victims of his $65 billion scheme, and kept at it.

According to K. C. White, a bank robber and prison artist who escorted a sick friend that evening, Madoff stopped smiling and got angry.

“Fuck my victims,” he said, loud enough for other inmates to hear.

“I carried them for twenty years, and now I’m doing 150 years.”

For Bernie Madoff, living a lie had once been a full-time job, which carried with it a constant, nagging anxiety.

“It was a nightmare for me,” he told investigators, using the word over and over, as if he were the real victim.

“I wish they caught me six years ago, eight years ago,” he said in a little-noticed interview with them.

And so prison offered Madoff a measure of relief.

Even his first stop, the hellhole of Metropolitan Correctional Center (MCC), where he was locked down 23 hours a day, was a kind of asylum.

He no longer had to fear the knock on the door that would signal “the jig was up,” as he put it.

And he no longer had to express what he didn’t feel.

Bernie could be himself.

Pollard’s former cellmate John Bowler recalls a conversation between Pollard and Madoff:…

… “Bernie was telling a story about an old lady.

She was bugging him for her money, so he said to her, ‘Here’s your money,’ and gave her a check.

When she saw the amount she says, ‘That’s unbelievable,’ and she says, ‘Take it back.’ And urged her friends [to invest].”

Pollard thought that taking advantage of old ladies was “kind of fucked up.”

“Well, that’s what I did,” Madoff said matter-of-factly…”

go to source/story>>>An Inside Look at Bernie Madoff’s Life in Prison — New York Magazine